One more thing we had a conversation about yesterday. When the wife called me about going out, I think I explained I handled it ok but somehow my emotions came out about it related to her sister and her situation (S - infidelity, living together) not effecting ours. She didnt get upset because she agreed her sister is not handling things properly but I didnt have to worry it effecting our situation. We hung up and I called back about 1 hour later (I know - bad) - saying it was wrong of me to compare and to just go and have fun. I said sorry been really trying hard with this and it's not easy. She said I know you are but look I have my counselling session tomorrow and let me get through that and maybe we'll talk more this weekend but I'm not making any promises right now about anything. It's the open ended comments that drive me insane.

Just some insight and more journaling/venting.

M: 43
W: 43
Married: 17 Together: 20
BD: 4/8/13 no legal or physical S as of yet
3 kids: S:14 D:13 D:9
W admitted EA: 5/5/13
Mediation started: 6/3/13
W says EA is done: 6/30/13 - still interested in D