Your business, May, to do what you want. But I agree with figgeroni. I've seen good marriages go berzerk with two kids. It is a ton of work and pressure, and you still have so much unresolved stuff.
The condom receipt still haunts you.
Heal that.
Talk about it. What's it going to take?
I have a very hostile relationship right now with my partner that is on the verge of ending - again - and we're okay with each other's parenting. That doesn't say a lot about our relationship with each other, though.
I would clean up your thoughts about getting older, and probably wanting to do this with the same father, etc. Just get really clear and clean on that stuff.
