TVS, this was AWESOME to read! Incredible how you kept your composure and stuck to your script, even when she baited you. Consider me among your legion of fans!
CB
Me; 42, W; 43 M; 16 yrs S12, D9
3/13 - "I want to move to XYZ City (four hours away) and it might be without you, not sure" 5/13 - "Not sure I meant that"
I have not forgotten about you, it has been a crazy few days here, and I haven't had time to post. I have been reading along when I can, and thinking of all of you and your situations.
Thank you to all who have been, and continue to be there for me. Your kindness and support mean so much to me. Truly a life saver.
I had a very difficult day on Wednesday because of something that happened to me at work (not related to H or OW). I was completely distraught, and cried on and off throughout the day. I told H about it Wednesday night, and he was very supportive and understanding. I gave up needing to be strong and brave in front of him all the time, and I let down my guard and was vulnerable. I sobbed to him about what had happend, and entrusted him with things that he knows are important.
And I'm glad that I did.
When I was done talking to him, he thanked me for talking to him. He didn't give me a hug, but a pat on the arm. In all honesty, that was disappointing, but then I reminded myself that perhaps that was the best he couid do at the time. And that's okay.
Have been thinking a lot about my conversation with OW and then my conversation with H about it. Now that the dust has settled a bit from the shock of it all, I am processing a lot and getting a clearer picture of things.
And I'm thinking things are looking bad for her. And possibly very good for me.
Will be starting my new thread, and I think you all will smile at the title
Bomb January 2012 - doesn't feel the same about me
~ "There is nothing love cannot face; there is no limit to its faith, hope, and endurance."
I'm so sorry about the traumatic work event. It sounds so painful. I don't picture you being a person to break down easily...but you have been under SO much stress...and for SO long.
I'm glad your H was tender hearted and supportive during this ordeal.
You've got a gut feeling about a change in direction for your sitch. It sounds promising...even as you are stuffing down those expectations! Hope is springing anew!
I understand about being disappointed in the pat on the arm. But it was something he hasn't been doing? So, you were able to accept this small gesture.
I can't wait for the new thread title and hearing new developments on your sitch! What will the weekend hold? Was it Monday that the talk with OW happened? So you haven't been through a weekend yet with this new eye opening look at things yet....
Me54/H47 '08 H is "done" March '12 H moved out Brink of D, December '12 2014 totally reconciled! ...... "I firmly believe in the...absolute possibility of marriage renewal." Jim Conway
