Odd. My mental landscape regressed last night and I spent hours continuing to give the A and the OW free rent in my head. I was back to "obsessing" about them together and the OW as a person (we've known each other for years... she was a friend.)
Thought stopping was useless. I googled and googled. But why? This morning I am thinking that maybe I was trying to make myself angry again. To tap into the pain so that when my W comes back for this "visit" or whatever it is... that I remember. That I'm careful of my heart. Maybe as some kind of defense mechanism?
Me(F):40 WAW:44 T:13yrs M:9yrs BD:2/12 (I saw a text) ILYBINILWY: 5/12 PA admission: 12/12 (began 3/11) S:2/13 Moves in w/AP D begins: 7/13 W moves home to R: 10/13
