Thanks, AS. I've been feeling at a crossroads for the last week or so, but I think I still want to continue the path I'm on. It feels like I'm going down cheeseless tunnels at the moment, though, so I'm trying to think what else I could be doing if anything.
Have been planning S's party this last week or two. Talked to him yesterday and learned that XW's (and my) friend is having another party for him at friend's house on his birthday (I'm having his party a couple weeks early since I need to be on travel during his birthday.) That upset me, though I tried not to show it to him. I guess I was hoping XW and friend would joins us for the one I was arranging.
I am really sensitive to feeling like our friends have enabled the separation and divorce. This brings up feelings I had when W moved out last spring. A mutual friend flew into town to help her move out of the house. That hurt. I think in both cases, I read too much into their motivation. They see W in need of help and are trying to pitch in. Still, it feels like they are somehow encouraging it by doing these things.
In the end, it's good for S to be shown attention and that he's loved on his birthday. I am trying to keep that in mind.
H: 38 xW: 38 M: 16 T: 18 S: 9 BD: 2/2012 W moved out 4/2012 D: 11/2012
