So as I previously posted, W has noticed I have been distancing myself from her. (This is not a strategic move...I have been having trouble being around her and I find this particular set of feelings almost impossible to hide.) I turned my phone off early Friday morning for an appointment and didn't turn it back on until 9:30'ish. I usually call my D's every morning, and usually she'll call me after dropping off all the girls at school to let me know the schedule for the day.

She apparently got extremely worried. Called and texted my cell phone numerous times. Called my office. Called my receptionist. I didn't really think about not telling her about my appointment or turning my phone off (maybe I should have), but I let her know I was okay via text once I turned it back on after my appointment. Once she knows I am okay, we text:

W: Well I feel like a total [butt] for calling you every morning on my way to work.
Me: Why
W: You need space

I let 30 minutes pass before I hit send on my reply, because I wanted to be very careful about what I said:

Me: I didn't want to say anything like that I wasn't 100% sure of so that's why I haven't yet, but yes, I need space. I am having trouble being around you right now...really for the last few weeks, and it seems to be getting worse as things unfold. I'm processing a lot of information and it's changing things.
W: Information?

...followed immediately by a call from her.

She pressed me for what I meant by "information", but all I would say is that I realized my line had been crossed and that I didn't think it was productive to get into specifics. She asked things like "I thought you wanted to be friends?" and said some other things that displayed to me she was slightly confused. I was stoic, and I could tell by the time we hung up that she was crying.

Later Friday I'm over at the house about to take D7 to gymnastics. W pulls me into the bedroom to talk and she is very upset. She appears to be in a panic mode of...that fear of losing me [I know the look...I've been in her shoes]. She's saying things like:

-"I know I am all over the place. One day I feel one way and the next day I feel the opposite."
-"I want you to know that I DO love you." (She hasn't said this to me in a really long time.)
...

...Darn - I will have to finish my thoughts later. I need to leave now to spend the evening with my 4-D's! smile

M:12y - BD:12/11 - D:6/13 - 4Ds

"The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy." -MLK Jr.