The fear is that I will think about her being with someone else, physically and emotionally.

That she will choose someone over me and that they will make her happy where I failed.(so if I truly love her I want her to be happy no matter what??)

That if I am alone it will fester <(I do love that word) in my head and I wont be able to handle it, thinking about her loving someone else, being with someone else.

There is a fear that I will find someone else and that I will not be able to stop comparing her to my W and thinking I still want my wife and she is with someone else.

I can not articulate how much the fear of her being with someone else, marrying not just an A, torments me. The thought of that now is unbearable, if it came to be reality I don't think I could survive it.

I do not know how to remove that from my thoughts.

M46,W41
D16,D18
M22,T25
BD 11/12
W moved out 01/13
Piecing 10/13
Divorced 01/15
"Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can."
UrWorthy