What's Going On?!? - Cautiously Contemplating

[RealityTrip]

I was over on Positivespin's thread learning about his sitch and I came across something AnotherStander said to him a few weeks back that resonates with me and why I am feeling so unsure about W returning for indefinite amount of time...

...true detachment takes many months! If you feel detached when she's away but not when she's there, then you're not detached. You'll know you're detached when you feel the same whether she's there or not. There's a certain ambivalence to it, it's not that you don't care about her, it's more that what she says and does doesn't impact you anymore. Your emotions will no longer change during interactions with her.

That's me. I feel less in control of my emotions at the thought of her returning. BD, S, and now this "ending it" is all in a 4 month time span. Fast compared to so many people.

While I was reading PSpin's thread my W texted me to ask me if I had taken care of the internet problem with our cable company. Huh? Oh yeah? The problem we had last August when I was a crazy, crying banshee and you were sneaking around? No. It slipped my mind. I didn't say all that of course! I just said, "No I haven't. Thanks for reminding me. I will call them when I get home today."

She texted me 30 minutes later.. "I took care of the cable comany issue. Everything should be fine when you get home. Xo"

Huh? Really? What? Are you doing things for me? Huh? Really? What?... Seriously. Huh?