When you say "short amount of time I have left" what time limit are you referring to?
As much as I don't want to be divorced. If i'm truly going to change these things about me for me. Then what does it matter. This maybe the wrong way to think, but at least we have a civil settlement agreement as we speak. So if she wants the divorce then i'm not going to fight or delay it. Maybe we are better off divorced but that doesn't change how I feel for her.
Me:34 W:26 Together:5yrs M:6/4/11 1st bomb 11/11 2nd bomb 1/21/13 W files for D 3/18/13 She's living with her mom S:13 Previous marriage S:11 Previous marriage She has OM Previous FWB