Nero, Glad to see you met up w/your girlfriend and her husband last night. It does you a world of good to get out and about for a bit.
So, what are you planting in the garden? Flowers and/or vegetables?
Sit quietly, the answers will reveal themselves when you least expect them to. The past is gone, the present is a gift and you need to focus on today, allow the future to reveal itself when it is ready.