A New Me 2

[jp787]

One thing I struggle with is the therapy, the process of change. Let me expand. I am logical and feel that I need a road map and paint by number guide to follow.
My W told me about her EMDR session and how she was able to pick her safe place, a beach with white sand, the deep blue water of the ocean, she was sitting in a chair on the beach with a hot guy fanning her and a drink in her hands. She could smell the ocean and taste the drink. She was in her safe place and then my youngest D and me showed up and were talking and loud creating noise, so the therapist had my W create a protector, she chose her FIL. He came into the picture and she said it was like he created a bubble around her and D and me were still there, but she couldn't hear us anymore.
I post that because to me that is what is suppose to happen and it AMAZES me! I can barely picture a beach in my head and she can smell the ocean air and taste her drink???

So I guess I am asking is there anyone else out there who is more like me, not able to picture all of this or experience all of this in your head and who have found ways to better yourself? Build your self worth and self esteem?

The idea of getting in my head to change things is very foreign to me.

Does these make any scene???