Weird scenario

[Jeack]

No all of you are exactly right. This isn't the same as last time. And even the last email I wrote. Even though I was telling her how I feel. I was once again verbally abusing her. By trying to make her feel bad about leaving and bringing up about us starting a family. That was something she really wanted and I didn't agree to it. In my defense our R wasn't good but if I had explained how I felt in a non passive agressive way. I may not be here right now.

I'm just scared cause I thought she'd be back and I deflected all the blame on her rather than owning my part which has pushed her to OM. Of course friends and family are going to always say its not my fault. So yes Advina although your first response seemed like a 2x4 I do appreciate your advise as well as everyone else.

I gotta leave her be. And make me a better person. That I can talk to rather than abuse.