It has been four weeks since I have spoken to xSO. Do you know that surprised me? Those weeks sure flew by! Busy making plans for the summer and seeing the bottom of my inbox.
I am not perfect, I still think of him sometimes and wonder what he is doing and how he is doing. But strangely, as we move further apart, I begin to see that even if he asked right now if we could get back together, I am not sure of my answer. There is love, but there is also immense hurt and no trust at all. I am also losing the desire to contact him, not because he will "miss me" but because I need to move forward. Clearly he is done with me.
Saw a show the other night called Betrayed while flipping the channels (I seldom watch TV). It is a show about how couples have handled infidelity. Besides being rather appalled at how prevelant infidelity is, one of the stories was about a couple who were married 20 years (4 kids) when the husband began a two year affair. He described himself as grieving after losing his mother and sister to cancer in a short period of time and becoming careless as to his priorities (MLC?). When the W found out, she divorced him quick. BUT, 20 years later at the insistence of their children they entered counselling and a year later renewed their vows. Holy cow - 20 years! I guess anything can happen.
