Help & Advice Needed Please (Thread 3)

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JOURNAL:

No contact today off Wife - not expecting any either...

It's odd I can't stop thinking about all of the things I got wrong in our marriage. I curse myself for every time she came home from work and I didn't hug her, kiss her and ask about her day. Looking back it all seems so incredibly lazy... I really hope that one day she will find it in her heart to give me another chance because I certainly won't make the same mistakes again.

Think I need a project of some sort to do when I'm at home. When I've not got our Son the house can feel incredibly empty. Any suggestions anyone?

Thoughts are strange - some days I have real hope that one day our roads will meet again, other days (like today) I just think I should be moving on and that she will never come back.

I understand her complaints and understand her hurt, but I don't think I'll ever understand how she chose to deal with those issues.

MIL told me yesterday that on Sunday she had to take our Son out of the house as he was very angry with Wife. Seems so, so sad for him to have to go through this. It's not what I would have chosen for him in a million years. My heart bleeds for him as his only wish is to have his family re-united.