I realize this morning that it's difficult for me to be encouraged or excited about anything positive from H based on lack of trust still. I'm trying to be open to trusting him again, but it's a giant leap of faith without any reassurances from H. So it clouds my reality because I have a 'yeah, but...' response in my head to any positive actions from H.
I'm going to concentrate my efforts on being the person I truly want to be. Regardless of what H does, positive or negative.
