Too many words, man. Too many words. She heard you. She knows you are right where she left you because you have told her that a million times. How is she going to look inside if she knows you are the fall guy? If her life doesnt work out the way she wants, no worries, because Chris will be there to pick up the pieces. He's there day or night, anytime I am ready to talk.
Sorry to be a little harsh, but, reread that convo.
Should have gone something like this.
W: is that a new shirt? You look fantastic. You really do. M: Yep, new shirt and thanks. I am going to give daughter the doll I got her and then I have to get going.
Or at the very least: W: I'm okay, not sleeping all that great, mind always going. Work is okay. BTW, the dog wold not listen to me, she ran away once, and would not settle down for me at night at all while you were gone. She was pacing around, etc. M: oh, okay. W: Oh my...I guess I've wreaked havoc in everyone's life. And maybe some day I'll be ale to figure out why I made the decision. M: I understand what you are saying. W: No, it wasn't all you or the marriage. The marriage was a big part of it, but, I don't know all the reasons. I know I don't know who I am, or what I want. I don't know what I want from my job, where I want to live, or what I really want from life type thing. M: Ok. W: oh no, not that at all, I never want to live in any other city, I wouldn't try to move away from you with her. That's not what I meant... W: I feel like I have no roots now. Like I'm floating through life. I never thought I would be this age, living in a small apartment as a single parent. We had always had "our" life. There are plenty of nights I sit here and want to cry about this, and I do. The other days and nights that I don't cry, I just survive.. I just exist. M: Sorry you're struggling. W: I know, and I don't know what to say to you. I can't commit to anything with you and us because I don't know who I'll be in 6 months. I wish I could tell you, give me six months to figure myself put, then we'll go work on figuring us out...but, I don't want to give you false hope... I don't know who I will be or what I will want... I feel completely like I'm floating through life right now. W: Me too. Do we still want to go see one together at some point? M: That's not something I can really commit to at this time. M: I am going to go see daughter and then I have to get going. Take care.
