Kaffe Diem, thank you for encouraging words. Your response did lift my spirit a little.

I’m sure my H has difficult time if he tries to erase the past from his mind. We have so much history together. I’m sure this is why he is trying to be friends with me, because he cannot let me go completely.

However, he is very stubborn and he will be sticking to his decision to end the marriage even if he has hard time doing it. He is convinced that it will be better for both of us (his words.) So, I think we are moving full speed towards D.

I’ve a couple of e-mails in the last few days from him with some articles and jokes. The funny part is that he sent them to our friends’ e-mails and CC’d me. This is something new. WTH?

I’m not looking forward to see him (probably in a week or so). I’m so fixated on impending D that I cannot pull myself back and think about what kind positive attitude I should be showing when I talk to him. I hope I will feel stronger by that time.

M:50
H:52
S28 (my S from previous marriage)
M:17 + 3
BD: 06/12
S: 06/12 - H works in another state