New to this ...

[steveh27]

Went to therapist today, she is a LMFT also but is helping with my fear, anxiety, controlling issues since she is experienced in it. Not sure how it went honestly, but I was able to release some stress and emotions. W knew I was going but seemed somewhat indifferent about it, which I expected. Therapist asked if W would be interested, I said I'm afraid to broach the subject as the W already mentioned she would see one of her own. I understand the coordinated effort and possible moderation benefit to doing this, so I asked the W. She didnt take it well at first, but listened a bit about seemed to say, we'll see. I dont care either way whether she wants to use hers or mine right now, but I would eventually like someone objectionable to listen to both of us separately and eventually together, which the W also said she was open to ... with her caveat again that this may not work out how I want and I want you to be prepared. What [censored] about this is the "hope" is what is carrying me right now - I can't get to the stage of GAL it seems counterproductive to my situation. Good talk with the W today on this and the R. It started off emotional and she had heart palpitations and had to hang up which scares the hell out of me. But she called back and we had a better conversation about this and the kids. One day at a time it seems, but it doesnt get easier. Still reading DR and trying my best to DB but today was hard and I slipped.