Weird scenario

[Jeack]

No your so right. I'm definitely passive aggressive. I was in IC for it before and need to find away to change that. I just feel like I'm running out of time. And then people that know her feel the need to inform me about what she's doing. Not coming home for days and apparently her mom and brother are getting mad at her.

The other thing my Therapist told me before was I'm a fixer and have to realize I can't fix her. Only myself.

Then I texted her this this morning. Once putting blame on her

Look I'm only writing this cause I care about you. Not to try to change your mind about the divorce. I know about how you've been running all around with Andy and your using it to deflect our problems. I really hope you stop letting yourself be used. You need to take some of the advice that therapists have told you. You always said about how the important people in your life leave you. But look at what your doing to me and how everything went down with the grandmother. I might not of been the best communicator and had my flaws. But I've always been there for you to pick up the pieces and I'm not gonna be for long. Your a smart fun person. I just really hope you wake up soon and realize these things. I wanted to build our own family together, I just wanted us to be stable first and you know I was right about us not being good or you wouldn't have ran away again. You said about all these statistics about how we didn't have chance because of age and this being my second marriage. You can find anything you want on the Internet to justify what you think. The bottom line is I do care about you. We have a lot of time invested in each other and were moving towards having a good life together, we had the house we were working towards kids and now it was all for nothing. Just seems like you don't want those things in life anymore. You seem lost. I really hope you wake up before its to late.

I've got to get control of myself. I'm driving myself crazy.