This is what happens when you go with what's happening and don't try to shut down your emotions. Stuff happens in your head, things shift and change.
Instead of peeling layers, I'm now going to go with cracks where the light gets in. Cracks in that hard exterior I had developed, cracks in the walls, cracks in my false self. Don't rush to patch those up too quickly, the light might not get in.
Again, from a favorite Leonard Cohen lyric:
There is a crack in everything That's how the light gets in.
I'll say it again your husband is a fool to leave you. We should not expect ourselves to be perfect in this thing called life, we fail all the time. I do however want to work on me, forgive myself when I do fail and find someone who has the same mindset... Your a gem bug, don't sweat the small stuff to much.
You can not change your past, but you can ruin a perfectly good present by worrying about the future.
