When you said you were emotionally abusive, you were very quick to point the finger back at her and say she was too. I think if this experience is a wake up call to you, you might turn all your attention off your W and begin to figure out what emotional abuse is, and why you did it, and how you can learn to never ever do that to another human being again, no matter what excuses you think justify it. And not to accept it when you hear it from someone else. And why you are so angry that you are out of control of your own behavior. Learn to feel and own your emotions, all of them, and stop using them as excuses to do bad things.
That should be enough to keep you very busy, without a moment to text your W or call her a whore.
Adinva 51, S20, S18 M24 total 6/15/11-12/1/12 From IDLY to H moving out 9/15/15-3/7/17 From negotiating SA to final D at age 50 5/8/17-now: New relationship with an old friend __ Happiness is a warm puppy.