J, I hear you on that. I had a horrific childhood and dont remember a lot of it. I think that is a good thing in a lot of ways because I remember plenty that I wish I could forget.
I know money is tight. My sis went for EMDR therapy and it really helped her remember her past and find new ways to deal with it.
I have a great therapist who has helped me remember some.
I know you want to find out what brought you to who you are today.
And that's a good thing. But the most important thing for you to know is that you are ok.
You are not a bad person. You did not mean to hurt anyone with your words or actions. You were just broken. You did not know better.
Now you do. And so you can do better.
It takes work and perserverance and courage to do it.
The way to feel good about yourself is to change into someone you can be proud of.
And you are changing, J.
I can see it. You are reaching out and posting to people. You are looking inside. You are changing your relationship with your daughters.
All good things.
You just keep moving forward. Keep working on becoming the person you were meant to be.
