She has asked me again about mediation, I spoke with my therapist about returning there. This was me response to the first time she asked,
"Would your reactions be any different the last two sessions?
The decision about returning to mediation,I have been thinking if that is the right route base on the behavior that was displayed during our last one, it really concerned the mediator and I. I sat there with mediator for awhile after you left, she had asked me questions about you that could not answer. I was lucky enough that day to have an appoint with my therapist that afternoon, she was able to help me come to an understanding. I wanted to reach out to your brother, to make sure you were okay. My Therapist and my brother had talked me down from that as it would of most like just upset you more that I was talked to him. If you are uncomfortable with me or the decisions we need to make, you could have discussed that without putting me down or ignoring me. You have rights and so do I. Nothing that was being discussed during our sessions with the mediator was new, I was being open and honest, and have always been. The "complaints", we had about each other, that we did discuss during the few therapy session are not resolved by looking into why things in our past have may us the way we are, but are found in listening and understand each other. I was wrong to judge you in the matter and I apologize if I offended you in such away.
She did not say anything about how she would be different. Speaking with our mediator she seem to think that I might be wasting time and money in mediation, base on her reaction last time. How to I convey that to my W. without Being Parental? My therapist told my that I should write back "I would Like you to stay through the session so we can have a discussion. "
