I just completed a 1.5 mile walk to clear my head and it will be D3 and I alone tonight
On Sat nite we had a "Picnic" - I laid a blanket on the floor in the LR- Made some Nachos and we sat and watched "Barbie Ballerina" on DVD
JP- you are sooooooo dead on - im thinking MLC as well but too many therapists state that she is "too young"
Its also got something to do with her own parents detaching from her when she was a teen
But I love her so I will keep digging in my position- improving the lives of my D3 and I financially and emotionally
and if she files for D3- One hot, newly single with an AWESOME daughter will be on the market
(See how I did that JP) - Love YA!
ME 38 W 37 T18 M5 D3 BD 1/7/13 PA Conf 2/11/13- Ongoing 2nd simultaneous affair Confirmed 4/19/13 W gets APT and begins transition out 5/29/13 First mediation appt 12/19/13
My alarm went off this morning at 4:50 am. I woke up in the big bed and I missed her.............
Its real quiet in the early morning and I dont know if the novelty/ motivation of her being gone has passed, or am i tired? I just did not feel focused on the workouts the last few days- I feel like im dragging.
I am also making a effort to step back from my friends - who have been AMAZING- because im feeling like a charity case.
I feel the need to be alone more- (I havent been). To really step back and to feel what is happening and to learn what I want and what I am without my wife.
I guess this is a next step in the evolution of a newer stronger me............
ME 38 W 37 T18 M5 D3 BD 1/7/13 PA Conf 2/11/13- Ongoing 2nd simultaneous affair Confirmed 4/19/13 W gets APT and begins transition out 5/29/13 First mediation appt 12/19/13
My alarm went off this morning at 4:50 am. I woke up in the big bed and I missed her.............
How long has it been since S? I remember those days of waking up and feeling terribly alone. It's been 8 months now and I can scarcely remember sharing a bed with W. In fact the thought of her being in MY bed seems really strange and foreign. Things really change with time.
Ill be in the car, or at work- all of a sudden I realize that I am now solely responsible for me...there is no safety net or backup plan if I screw up, no one to "catch me".
Fear of unknown? fear of being alone? insecurity? Low self esteem? co-dependency?
anyone else have weird thoughts that creep up when its quiet?
ME 38 W 37 T18 M5 D3 BD 1/7/13 PA Conf 2/11/13- Ongoing 2nd simultaneous affair Confirmed 4/19/13 W gets APT and begins transition out 5/29/13 First mediation appt 12/19/13
TPS Me: 44 H: 42 M14 T17 S10 D7 10/10 H moves out after death of his father-same month 21/04/12 H is 'DONE' 04/05/12 OW/PA confirmed (rumors from 2010) July '14 H ends affair May '15 H moves back home
Fear of unknown? fear of being alone? insecurity? Low self esteem? co-dependency?
What are these things you speak of?
Originally Posted By: Positivespin
anyone else have weird thoughts that creep up when its quiet?
and when it is not so quiet...
M46,W41 D16,D18 M22,T25 BD 11/12 W moved out 01/13 Piecing 10/13 Divorced 01/15 "Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can." UrWorthy
ME:51 W:46 M:25 S:22, S:20 Divorced 16/9/15 BD 10/12 W left 12/12 with OW, affair confirmed Nov/12. Dark since 6/13 I"m in a new relationship since Feb 14.
The exact thoughts that I say to me self. STATS! Stop Thinking About This Shot
M 37 W 30 S 7 Together 10 years Married 9 years BD: 12/12/12(W filed same day) I moved to apartment 1/11/13 W and S moved to MIL 1/11/13 Peicing: 6/3/13 Reconciled: 7/2013 BD2: 4/20/16 still working on it
