I understand the depression. Every day you see yourself, see you can do better and tomorrow you swear you will, but it seems that the hole just gets deeper.

I understand this, I have been there and so have many others. When you see your therapist I would like you to at least open a dialogue about meds.

I hit bottom, wasn't sleeping, wasn't eating, single mom, no H, he has new girlfriend, working, doing Masters degree. I went to my doctor and said "Give me drugs" He said "IO, you are one of the strongest women I know" I said, "NOt right now I am not and I am very close to not getting back up at all"

He gave them to me lol!! (anti anxiety and sleeping).

But the point is I recognized this in me, just as you recognize your depression. It doesn't make us weaker to admit these things and get help, it only strengthens us when we need it.

uW said exercise helps, it does. Acknowledging that you have friends who care helps, you do smile. At least open the dialogue my friend.

Don't worry about posting whether you wrote W or not, we need to see the focus come back to you. How can you take care of anyone else if you are not willing to care for you?