Sent W an email that said how I have been seeing more of how I was in the past and why I was that way, not saying I was changing, just that I was becoming more aware and apologized for it. I wasn't sure if I should have done, that, but I did.
I received an honest response from her and it was positive in the way that she wants me to succeed and hard to read, but I can't complain.
Debating on posting, but IDK if I should. This isn't what I am supposed to be doing, I am supposed to be leaving her alone and working on myself.

So I too have a big bed :-) I know the feeling you are having.
I think it is good to be alone and reflect on everything, yet be careful not to let sadness or depression sneak up on you, it is very easy to do ;-)

M46,W41
D16,D18
M22,T25
BD 11/12
W moved out 01/13
Piecing 10/13
Divorced 01/15
"Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can."
UrWorthy