Harder and harder

[Positivespin]

My alarm went off this morning at 4:50 am. I woke up in the big bed and I missed her.............

Its real quiet in the early morning and I dont know if the novelty/ motivation of her being gone has passed, or am i tired? I just did not feel focused on the workouts the last few days- I feel like im dragging.

I am also making a effort to step back from my friends - who have been AMAZING- because im feeling like a charity case.

I feel the need to be alone more- (I havent been). To really step back and to feel what is happening and to learn what I want and what I am without my wife.

I guess this is a next step in the evolution of a newer stronger me............