It sounds like your H has some serious issues going on inside him and they are just coming out focused on you. Our spouses are always the easiest ones to lash out at.
Reading back over the story it seems that there were some moments and events outside your M that triggered a lot of the issues.
I am hoping for the best for you.
it makes me feel a little bit more sane when someone outside of the situation sees what I do and then I know im not being over dramatic.
Im sad because I know he needs help but his family and the army wont do anything. He has made it clear he doesnt want any help from me.
I dont want a D but i think its for the best for now. Maybe someday he might come around but idk if i can trust him again or forget the pain he has caused me.
H:25 M:25 T: 9 1/2 Yrs M: 5 Yrs
trouble in paradise: 1/18 Big D: 2/10 EA confirmed 3/11 H Leaves me: 3/30 Files: 4/8 Served: 4/15 OW Confirmed: 8/6 Divorce Final: ???
