Working on saving my marriage, again

[Lonely Room]

Thank you AnotherStander, your words make sense to me.

There is a power unbalance in our relationship, and that was always a source of problems. I know this sounds bad, but she always adopted the role of the adored and I am the adorer. Because I adore her. The problem is that when I am low, sad and with problems in life, I snap at her as a way of dealing with things. And that's when the parent-child arguments kick-in, you are right.

I have much more to lose if this relationship ends than her, even much more now that we have a son. This only increased that unbalance. And my fears.

I know that we are still together, that things aren't as bad as they were 2 years ago (or so I hope) and that we both seem to be working to make things better. But I can't take off my head what happened before and the pain I went through. The pain that she also went through.

I am again investing all my energy on making things better. Work, money and such are now way down in my priorities list. I hope I'm doing the right things, I can't handle another separation, I don't know how low it will take me this time.

Thank you again.