Keep on, keeping on!

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Have you read The Dance of Anger? It's old and some references a bit dated but it is still good information.

Actually I think this

To move to acceptance and not have to worry about my interactions with H anymore. I would not continue a R or communication with him. I'd be friendly in regards to if I saw him at an event, but I would stop trying to promote a friendship R.

is a good place to be until you feel like you want to be friendlier.

About the hope, let it go. All you have is today. I know people will bristle at this but hope leads to expectations, hope leads to disappointment and guilt and feelings of unworthiness when what we hoped for doesn't happen. We feel that somehow we weren't worthy or we didn't do it right. Hope for what may happen in the future sometimes blinds us to the wonderful things we have today.

How you handle today will influence tomorrow and how you handle tomorrow will influence the next day, etc. We can only live one day at a time.

You have great Ds, and it sounds like a pretty good life. Enjoy that, revel in it and let tomorrow take care of itself.

Do you do a gratitude list every day?

Thanks for making me think about and write that today. I needed it.