Taking a step back-a fresh start

[cbtdad]

Thanks subguy.
I'm trying to take URworthys advice when she says,
"Use any feelings of anger you will have as a way to propel you forward. Feel them, and then let them wash over you and let them go. Otherwise it will weigh you down and sap your energy."

I'm not even thinking about R at this point. I don't know if I want that anymore.
I need to just focus on me and take it from there. Maybe if we both changed then it could work, but right now the person I see I wouldn't want to be married too.
It's really sad, but I will not let the anger out on her or son.
I am finding other things to keep me busy