I still like blue, what else?

[albamarie]

Your so sweet Portia, thanks for the kind words.

I do have to get out there and do more for myself. I am actually sick of H and all that he is, it's making me thinks he's so yucky, and I don't really want to go there, I would rather be mature and move on gracefully

I'm trying to decide between work and school, it seems neither is the obvious choice, so I have to do some research. My main goal is to be financially independent of H. I don't have many college credits, just some prerequisites before I went into the real estate program at 18yrs old for my licence.

I have been away from RE for a few yrs now and there is no way I want to take a chance on becoming dependent on my state, and the market. I was a looking at all the programs at the jr college and I am lost. I did apply for f-aid and got a full scholarship for being a SAHM.

Working at a place w/some longevity could yield me a decent living (eventually) and I really would need some health care. Either way I need time.

Today H said H can't keep up this work pace much longer meaning the time for a two person income is approaching. He would be making boat loads like all the others if he wasn't MLC. I feel as if I am stuck w/him now, like $$ will determine my path and keep me w/h in misery.

If a court had to decide how much he would pay me a month at this pace, he would be living in poverty, while I brought in my pay to add to what I get from him. I would have the house, my 3 S's pay rent, half his retirement and D19 is in college on his dime. And he screwed me over, hum, looks like loose loose at his end.

Back to me, how does a SAHM work her way out of a bad M, and come out ok, I guess very slowly! Good thing the 40's is now the new 30's