Hello my friends and sorry for the long hiatus. I felt I needed a break from the BB because I was starting to neglect living in the real world so that I could live in the virtual one. Not a good decission if I want to have a real life...

Anyway, in the R front things were about the same. No more fireworks, lots of (we continue our green mornings... ), and lots of time together. I had even resolved last night to give him time to get to kick OW out his way...

After the bomb, I had asked him repeatedly to do things for me and he never did, but since he came back from his vacation I had noticed he did do some, like leaving his cell phone open all the time, and calling me with his plans beforehand... So, even though I had seen a bunch of weird 'flags' go off (he had told me he was not moving his retirement accounts to the other CFC and he has, he insists the wh*re is looking for a job, but she's still there...) I thought I should quit doing 'more of the same' (e.g. ask him to do things he obviously did not want to do) and wait and see what happened. So we have been in limbo for 2 weeks, not a bad kind though.

But today, I am furious. I need to vent here before I go off and do something very precipitate. Trying to keep myself from calling my lawyer as we speak... or write... whatever!

I went to our D's new school for the final admission's interview and she scored really high in her tests for a 4 year-old: 89 percentile in nearly everything. I was totally proud, so I dropped by H's office to show off (I had been worrying about her motor skills and H had been telling me not to worry).

When I got there, H was working and OW and her D were there as office staff. I sat in his office to wait for him and noticed 2 coats and 2 jerseys that used to be home were now there... He also had NO pictures of me whatsoever, and several of D in front of the wh*re's house...

And in that W's office there is a new cartoon of her and him framed and on the wall (I saw it from the door, so I could not see when it was done, but it was not there 2 weeks ago, when I dropped by). She used to have a bunch of pictures of her and her family in that place (including one of her son's wedding with my H there)...

It made me think there is something fishy going on. Well, if all is over between them and she is looking for another job why would she bother to frame an old cartoon and put it in her office?

And he kept being very cold with me and telling me to 'take care. Good bye' when I told him 'see you later, love you'...

I want to puke... I suspect he is playing the double game again, telling her we are getting a divorce any day and telling me we are together for ever... That would explain why he does not want anything from me in his office... why he does not want me involved in his finances, and why he does not even dare borrow my car...

Of course, the W does not realize that if I went ahead with the divorce she's know right away: she and her family would be sub poenaed (is that the correct word, ODGA?) to depose as to the adultery... But of course she's not smart... or is too greedy to care...

As I get calmer, I am remembering that when I asked him if I should bring the clothes home with me, he answered "I did not buy those clothes." Meaning that they were a present from her and he did not want them anymore... I did not dispute the assertion, but we had bought one of the coats and the jerseys together...

What do I do now?

"You don't throw a whole life away just 'cause it's banged up a little" Tom Smith in "Seabiscuit"