Hanging out, down the street

[JustStunned]

One year came and went. I did not realize it had been a year until I began to compose this update. Looking back the 24th was the day I replaced Mom’s hot water heater. I did not anticipate plumbing another gas supply line and this necessitated a second trip to the hardware store.

I have been waffling between being glad it is over and grateful she chose to end our relationship and marriage. I am glad it is over. Looking back the relationship was toxic and affected more than just us negatively. I find it difficult to have gratitude for the manner she chose and that I was not able to be part of the decision. I recognize it is all water under the bridge now.

The other day DIL made a comment about me and when I will be ready to move on. I think she was referring to when I will begin another relationship as moving on. This is not my definition of moving on. I do not think moving on should be predicated upon being in a committed relationship.

I gave her the same response I gave the pastor a few weeks prior when he inquired if I was looking. “I may begin looking for another relationship after I become content with myself and can be happy being me.” I spent too much time as a half. It is time I became whole again.

It is laudable that so many of us are looking for and finding relationships. I read each of the entries in these threads. I do not comment as I have little to add other than a caution and I believe when I am ready if I read a caution it might cause me to hesitate long enough to miss an opportunity.

My son ran the Tough Mudder in Mansfield yesterday and was quite satisfied with his performance. I hope to catch up with him sometime this week. We exchanged a few texts at the end of the day and I understand he finished with the group ahead of the one he started with.

I spent the beginning of the week in Louisville. Turkey hunting, catching up with my cousin and his wife and watching Thunder. It was a good way to start the week.