Take the hits and keep moving forward.

[T1000]

I know I need to give it time. I plan on going to a new gym after work plus I've got an episodes of Game of Thrones to watch too.

Is it just the fact that it happened at all? Yes
Is it because you convinced yourself it would never happen? Yes
Is it because you waited, whereas if you had known you might have acted differently? Yes

I'm fine for a few hours then I will get an image in my head and it feels like I'm gonna drop me to my knees. I stop straight away and try to think positive. It fills me with such rage and anger.

I feel like our union, the bond that we had has been tarnished by this and this alone. More than a physical and mental separation ever could.

A big part of the problem is if I can't I let this go. I'm scared that I can't. I feel like I want to lash out at her for hurting me. I feel like she is a slut who slept with first guy who asked her out. God only knows what else she might have been up to. I meant that little too her.

I think a big problem of mine is jealousy and control.