Finally getting to where I see that no matter what I have to focus on me, yet I continue to keep falling into a state of self loathing, just not caring or feeling like I have the energy to move. I just want to sleep. Yes I am taking AD meds and have to give them time to kick in and then readjust and so on... I get on a high to where I feel on top of this that I can do it and have the mental focus and energy, then I fall and go into a deep blah. I have an appointment with my therapist this am and was trying to figure out what to talk about today... I guess my highs and lows is as good of a place to start as any. I wish I didn't have to take meds, I feel like they help, yet hinder me, idk how to explain it, but know if I am not on an AD my anxiety/agitation soars. So here I am tired, no energy, no nothing. Mind over mind? I have tried to snap myself out of it, tried to say your wallowing in self pity, just man up and get going... Something keeps pulling me down. Anyway... Thanks for all the support.
M46,W41 D16,D18 M22,T25 BD 11/12 W moved out 01/13 Piecing 10/13 Divorced 01/15 "Whether you worry or not has no affect on the outcome. But, moving forward, letting go, and making changes can." UrWorthy
