Take the hits and keep moving forward.

[T1000]

I have no idea how to validate her last message.
Until it comes to me, if it comes to me I'm just going to leave it.

I find the expectations thing so hard. Who can really have no expectations of something so massive in their lives.

I could have not asked the question but it would have eaten at me until I asked anyway. I have way more questions that I feel I need to know the answer to but will also cripple me.
I honestly (really deep down) expected (f***ing hate that word now) for her to say no. I honestly did. I was asking just to confirm what I thought (more fool me).

What I want isn't available anymore and never will be.
I would like to think I can get past this but right now moving on feels more realistic in what I 'm willing to accept.

I do agree that I can always change my mind down the road. That road looks pot holed, cracked and covered in barbwire right now.