There is no timeline to this. Look at my dates down below. Scary, huh?

I think you're watching for the pot to boil. Stay busy with your life and leave the pot to do what it will do.

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The effort of carrying all the hope for our entire family is exhausting.

Talk more about this. It seems you actually have pretty good family interactions with H being gone. And you've certainly grown as a person. Why do you feel you're carrying all the hope for the family?

About the integrity speech, take it for what it is. A man expressing an opinion.

Me 57/H 58
M36 S 2.5yrs R 12/13

Let me give up the need to know why things happen as they do.
I will never know and constant wondering is constant suffering.
Caroline Myss