I am so sorry that you are hurting so much... I don't know if the hurt will ever go away completely, perhaps we just learn to accept it, process it and move out of the state of sadness? IDK - I guess time will tell, but I do hope you can find some comfort and get to a place of acceptance and peace soon. We are here for you, offering virtual support and a listening ear (or reading eyes and typing fingers...)
I totally understand why you are wondering about your H's behaviors, specially if they are unusual. Remember about the distance / pursuit dynamic? And yes, it is better not to wonder what any of his actions mean right now, because it's all mind-reading at this point. I know... easier said than done, specially when it has been months and years even of our Hs behaving distant, indifferent or mean.
I am glad you were able to be with the kids even when it wasn't your weekend and had a good time at the party. Hang in there! ((((((((((BF))))))))))))
Me & H: 44 D7, D6, S3 Together: 20y, M: 17y EA: 11/13/10, Sep: 12/23/10 EA becomes PA: Spring 2011 H filed for D: 09/06/12 D Negotiating began 2/15 OW seemingly gone on 3/15 Still negotiating D
