The good: H came to dd's rehearsal tonight and d18 invited him to dinner. He came for a little over an hour and dinner was pleasant. I followed your advice azguy and praised his work and visit we had yesterday. I also took him up on offer to watch cats while we're gone this week and told him alarm code. He asked if I wanted to make a temp code for him but I just told him what it was. I initiated a hug when he left and he referred to our MC appt this week so I don't have to remind him of that!
The bad: I feel nothing. I feel like I hardly care anymore. The kind, friendly interactions are non-intimate and it feels useless. I accept that I can't fix him, can't fix our R without some effort from him, and he seems uninterested in positive changes with me. The effort of carrying all the hope for our entire family is exhausting.
The ugly: I was teasing d18 at dinner about having senior-itus and H went into a speech about personal integrity. Really? He can even open his mouth and tell us about the importance of doing what's right? He actually used an example like you would to a 10 yr old 'would you steal the candy if no one was looking? you have to do what's right because you know it's right'. Big. Fat. Whatever.
I'll need an attitude adjustment before mc this week.
