AJM, thank you so much for being so kind and open. Your words really touched me. It feels good to be acknowledged for who I really am. My STBX doesn't see the true me anymore. That hurts. I'm the same person I've always been, but with more depth, understanding and compassion for others and I'm so grateful for that. I can connect with more people due to my growth. What a gift. My greatest sadness will be that I didn't have the opportunity to use my new skills to make a difference in the outcome of my marriage.
You and GG are right about staying the course with the divorce. Thank you both for that reminder. The outcome is very important and will determine whether I struggle or live comfortably. This battle is wearing me down. I just want my life back. I miss being joyful. I want to focus on my boys. They're growing up so fast. No matter how much time I have with them it will never be enough. I don't want to waste anymore days being in court, crying, feeling frustrated. Sometimes I just feel like what's the point. There are no winners. I just want to be able to rebuild my life and provide stability for me and the boys. I'm puzzled as to why my STBX wants to interfere with that. He is trying to give us as little as possible. He doesn't care where or how we live. He remains focused on his new life. That's all that matters. How do people just stop loving the family they left behind?
