Taking a step back-a fresh start

[cbtdad]

I am hurting worse than I have in a long long time.
I always knew there was a chance, but I didn't think it would happen.
W texted earlier and said call?
Meaning when to call our son.
She is staying where the OM is the whole week and has decided to be there instead if coming home at all.
She will be gone for 10 days away from our son and now I have to come up with some excuse every day to why momma isn't here.
I am angry, hurt, devestated all at the sametime.
I want to text her and speak my mind and say a lot of things.
I know it won't make a difference though. I gave her this option when I texted her on Thursday I just never thought she would actually take that option.
I honestly would rather son not be there with OM, but I figured she would choose Son over OM.
I guess it goes to show you how these things go.
I am trying to keep my composure and not go nuts.
Help!!!!!