It's funny, once you stop the fighting, and quietly step back, you see just how easy it is they are making it for you to not want them in your life. My H creates an air of misery around him that I am glad to be detached from, and anyone who would want that/him is not a prize by any means.

MIZ-
Though I didn't respond I did read your post yesterday and it made me feel good, thanks! I think about Fri's as they come and even start some mornings off w/makeup, hair, good thoughts, but it is all the same, I don't have any many friends. I was actually considering an overnight at a nice relaxing hotel, w/hot tub, and room service, alone. I may still do that soon.

I grab my kids the best I can, not my boys so much, their good for dinners and game night, and they bring out that damn hookah that I can't resist, they are such a bad influence on me wink. My D19 does more than her fair share of mom time and then she has her life. My BFF is more miserable than I am, and in complete denial, I need to be in a sitch where I can meet new people.

So yea, I got some of the secret gray outa my hair and snapped in some extensions that I braided so it looked wild like my own hair, and drove w/sunroof open downtown to check out the mag mile scene. It was sad, I'm old enough to afford it all now, but too alone to sit in a nice restaurant and enjoy it. Next time maybe I'll bring an Ipod and walk the lake, at least I won't feel weird doing that alone.

I was an only child, then I was M w/4 kids and never alone, now I'm back to being an only again, I expected the kids to scatter, but my H, that is still taking a very long time to get used to, whether I want him or not it is a struggle.

Hope everyone had a pleasant weekend under all our personal circumstances! I'm going to learn how to BBQ now, how do you start a fire grin

The past can't be ahead of you in the future.
You don't have to figure it all out, just pick a direction.
What's next...I don't know but I can't wait!