i find it hard to remember to 8itch up and not be me. it's wierd to try and be some other kind of personna. i'm working very very hard on stopping my stupid mouth from saying "i'm sorry" every five minutes for everything in the world - and explaining - and "taking the bait " on anything inflammatory.
it's work man- i like caring- that's the hardest part- telling myself to stop it. i'm assuming if he works long and hard enough at being what he is currently- it will stop by itself. like my mom- sad to report - how i feel about her is different and i don't see it ever going back to what it was. too many bad feelings & on-purpose jabs. h too- he's not as bad as her. maybe that's why i can still even be here- comparison-wise- my mom has been worse last 15 years than i could have ever forseen.
oh well huh? people sure "make their own beds" - i do feel sorry for them having to lay in it- but i don't honestly see how i can or could have helped or saved them.
they WILL cut off their noses to spite their faces . man, i'm full of proverbs today- i do like them.
i got nothin much- just checking in while he's on roof to say hello and hope your day is going okay. will go read your thread now- take care - hope there's peace in dawnland today. xxoo
