Crazy little thing called MLC

[reachingHigher]

Oh Raine, strange things for OW to give a gift for the baby! You must be just whirling with "how weird can this get?"

Yet, you are staying the path, doing the right things, holding the home and fort down with love and passion for the vision of family that you carry in your heart!

And for your boys, that translates into reality -- flesh and blood mommy with hugs and kisses and laughs and bandaids and joy. You're there for everyone!

Try to pamper yourself in the few minutes you might have a day.

One of my sister does EFT, "tapping" they call it. I don't want to do it but she told me that she repeats a mantra sometimes "I deeply and completely accept myself.". When I'm having a really bad day, I just say that to myself over and over while doing activities. Somehow it does really help to calm my spirit.

About my H changing the things he said at BD. No, not really. Did you see what FY posted about what we see as "bomb drop" they see as an "awakening"? So, I think from their POV, there isn't this big apology waiting to happen.

My H did admit that he felt it wasn't true that he didn't love me. It's just that our love didn't reach to a deeper level than it could have.

He really doesn't talk about anything now. I'm guessing it will be a few months like this. He is in the process of moving back and accepting he is moving back. I hope he doesn't feel like his experiment "failed". I'm afraid to ask him questions. He will talk when he is ready and we are doing MC.

I know, you want them to acknowledge the incredible hurt they caused us. I don't think they can. I'm guessing my H will not remember it any more then he remembers clothes I bought myself during replay, or family things he has forgotten. I don't think he means it poorly, it just IS.

This whole journey seems to me to be one of ultimate love. Learning to accept someone as to how they are, who they want to be, right now. It's not often easy. Sometimes nearly impossible! But I think it is the core of what makes life so very special. True love. Really truly love.