Crazy little thing called MLC

[Raine]

rH, has your H brought up things from how he was feeling at BD with you, like that he doesn't feel that way anymore or that he feels they were just reasons for a much bigger issue? It's funny when I read your list, and also knowing my own list from H, it's just crazy that they even bring those things up. "I'm leaving you because you don't wear blue polish." It's things like that which landed me here on this board. Absolutely nothing made sense to me. It was all just so crazy and out of left field. People don't get D for these reasons. It was also so weird to me that he never mentioned anything before. It just all came at once, along with no second chance or desire to work on anything.

I do know that any future relationship I have, I'm not taking anything for granted. I just don't see how anyone could go through what we are going through, and not come out of it a much humbler, caring, and appreciative person. I would appreciate and reciprocate any affection, because I now know what it's like to have that taken away. I am so happy that your H has and is still waking up and seeing the light. And that light is you!

The first few after BD were pretty bad for me with depression. I was feeling suicidal in the beginning. I was so angry at him too. It was this massive cycle of denial, anger and depression. I'm glad I am through that.

I am holding up really well! It's harder now that I'm on my own, trying to get enough sleep and deal with schedules. I'm glad I still have another months of maternity leave. I'm still trying to take things easy and not over do it, which is hard to do sometimes.

That is so funny you saw that lady with the four boys. I hope she is having a girl! I am done for sure, but really wanted one girl. We do have a really good dynamic going. I am glad that S2 is going to have a brother close to his age, where I think a sister would just terrorize him and throw us all off our game.

I admire you so much and all you've been through and how strong you've been. I would love to meet you one day. How nice it would be to be close to those who are going through or have gone through the same situation. I could only imagine the damage we could do, especially when it comes to OW.


Oh that reminds me I was going to mention this: OW3 is in town, and H was complaining to me about her, kind of how she was acting to him at work and some other things. Funny. I'm sure he'll still go out and play with her, but my sense is he feels obligated to it, because I don't get the feeling he likes her, more kind of annoyed by her. WEIRD! And to make it even more weird, he gave me a gift for the baby...from her! And I just had to act surprised and say thanks and to tell her thanks. Reminds me of TWS' OW, except H didn't hide who it was from.