Crazy little thing called MLC

[Raine]

Hey GG! I hope you're doing well. How are things going with you? Is everything finalized now?

I miss the affection too. He was upset by me missing the affection because it took this for me to appreciate it. Kind of ironic, because why would I miss something I already had, almost like he felt that the pushing him away was the majority of the time, not a fraction of the time, or that he can't remember how much I initiated things. I asked him if he could even remember all the times I was super affectionate, and he said yes, and that he can even focus on the good times, but it wasn't enough. I said to him, "Well if it wasn't that, it would have been something else." That's what I feel like. If I had been perfect in that area, it would have just been another area he would have focused on for justifying his reasons to leave. I do feel like now he puts the majority of the blame on himself and not being good enough for me, and that we're better off without him.

Big hugs back to you too! I hope that you are in or getting to a really good place. Last we talked you were dating some and getting out. I hope your S & D are doing well in the transition too.