Staying at school will help keep your mind busy and keep her guessing.
Sounds like she tried to engage you for whatever reason when you got home.
M36 W31 S4 S2 T5 M4 BD Jan12 S July12 Recon Sep12-Nov12 ILBINILWY Jan13 OM x 2 in 2013 W wants R July 13 I start D. Jan 14. Meet GF Nov 13 Have I changed enough? Jul 14
Only 2 weeks of school left. I've been thinking about my situation a lot lately. At this point I feel like if some time in the future W changed her mind and wanted to come back to me that it wouldn't matter because I don't want to be with her anymore. I know we had some good times together. The only time in my life when I have cried because I was overwhelmed by happiness was on my wedding day, but at this point I wish I had never met W.
There is some good news though. I have a job interview Friday morning. Hopefully I get it that way I can be financially stable when we separate. The only income we have right now is our financial aid/student loans.
Me:22 W:20 T: 1.5 years M: 1 year I find out about EA: late March 2013 W says she wants D: 4/8/13 I find out about PA: 4/19/13 I move out: 5/9/13 I file: 5/24/13
Go into that interview confident that you are the right man for the job. I know it's been rough lately and at times you may have felt like a whipped dog, but don't let those emotions affect your future.
It sounds like you have a pretty steady head and can prioritize things that are important. I really admire how you've been able to press forward with your studies. Good luck with the job interview!
It is not about what you feel should work in your M. It is about doing the work that gets the right results. Do what works!
M36 W31 S4 S2 T5 M4 BD Jan12 S July12 Recon Sep12-Nov12 ILBINILWY Jan13 OM x 2 in 2013 W wants R July 13 I start D. Jan 14. Meet GF Nov 13 Have I changed enough? Jul 14
So W was actually talking to me tonight instead of sitting there texting. Then at one point in the conversation she called me OM's name. Then there was a really long awkward silence. Then she said she has called OM Alan before. Other than that tonight was actually pleasant, but I feel like it was probably just a one time thing and she'll be back to the same behavior tomorrow.
Me:22 W:20 T: 1.5 years M: 1 year I find out about EA: late March 2013 W says she wants D: 4/8/13 I find out about PA: 4/19/13 I move out: 5/9/13 I file: 5/24/13
M36 W31 S4 S2 T5 M4 BD Jan12 S July12 Recon Sep12-Nov12 ILBINILWY Jan13 OM x 2 in 2013 W wants R July 13 I start D. Jan 14. Meet GF Nov 13 Have I changed enough? Jul 14
Only 2 weeks of school left. I've been thinking about my situation a lot lately. At this point I feel like if some time in the future W changed her mind and wanted to come back to me that it wouldn't matter because I don't want to be with her anymore. I know we had some good times together. The only time in my life when I have cried because I was overwhelmed by happiness was on my wedding day, but at this point I wish I had never met W.
Give yourself more time to process this. Just like the WAS can rewrite history, so can the LBS. It's a defense mechanism. It's normal to cycle through thoughts like this, I've done it too. Don't be surprised if you completely change your mind again in a week or two.
I think the job interview went really well. I should know within the next couple days if I got the job or not. The pay isn't excellent but it is enough to pay everything I need to pay, and they said that they would most likely be able to work with my schedule when school starts again.
Me:22 W:20 T: 1.5 years M: 1 year I find out about EA: late March 2013 W says she wants D: 4/8/13 I find out about PA: 4/19/13 I move out: 5/9/13 I file: 5/24/13
This post isnt really related to R or M. Today was going really well. Rocked the interview and a quiz I had in one of my classes. The on the way home as I'm getting on the the freeway my car starts to feel a little funny. As I started to accelerate the accelerator went limp and fell to the floor and then my car starts to accelerate by itself like I'm flooring it. The break was very hard to push. Luckily I was able to put the car in neutral and get off the freeway. But the break was still very hard to push even after turning off the car. I managed to get pulled over and stopped. But as soon as the car is turned back on the engine revs all the way up and the accelerator has no tension in it. I'm glad I was able to get the situation under control safely, hopefully whatever the problem is doesn't cost too much to fix.
On the bright side I just got a call back from the job and I got it. I start Monday which is before finals but I think I should still have the time to get ready for them.
Me:22 W:20 T: 1.5 years M: 1 year I find out about EA: late March 2013 W says she wants D: 4/8/13 I find out about PA: 4/19/13 I move out: 5/9/13 I file: 5/24/13
Then there was a really long awkward silence. Then she said she has called OM Alan before. Other than that tonight was actually pleasant, but I feel like it was probably just a one time thing and she'll be back to the same behavior tomorrow.