MLC by MIL death/daughter car accident/new job

[Live4myDay]

I keep reading and reading; one post leads to another and I'm even printing some of them out. It gives me reassurance that it wasn't about ME. I took everything so personal...still do. However, there is nothing that could replace the happiness I feel while I'm here everyday with my daughter making her life better. I feel guilt over my son and leaving but he was off to college and he completely understands. I do feel more confident now.

Last night I had a dream with my XH in it. It was like our dreams were connecting. Like he was having the same dream with me. Have you ever had that??? Well we were lying on the couch together and I was in the nook of his arm and he had on a tshirt that my daughter sent him. I could actually feel everything. The way the cotton tshirt felt, his arm around my shoulder. And we talked knowing we were apart from each other and I told him I don't think I could be with anyone else I just feel so right with him. This is where I belonged. I can't remember what he was saying. Wish I could of remembered. Maybe Lord telling me something?? Weird.