Thank you everyone, for the support. Just to clarify, I am making my changes for me and my daughter. My point was simply that W would not care, nor will she come back regardless of the changes. It was just an observation. I am STILL going to work on being a better person.
I am also feeling an incredible amount of hurt and anger. I know this, but I am having a hard time not acknwoledging it. What is happening in our marriage is not fair, nor is it right. W is making horrible choices for D and I. Perhaps they are what she needs, but it is damaging D and I in the process. That hurts, and it does make me angry. I can't make that go away no matter how hard I try.
Please trust me, I do not wish to be divorced. I would not even be here if that was the case. I want my family back as a whole. My daughter, just last night, tried to give me some advice by saying "Mommy loves sea shells. Maybe you can give her some and and you will get back together". That absolutely RIPS my heart out. I don't want that. However, I also don't want W taking my daughter into Canada and me not being able to get her back. There is nothing in the world I wold risk that for. I don't know any other way of handling this. Sure, I can get a legal separation, but I know as well as anyone that it is just a means to a divorce. I don't want to go through this twice. I don't think I can take it.
